Finals Are Approaching

I am wide awake sitting in the computer lab trying to finish work. You can deffiently tell which people are upper classmen and who barely has finals. Me, I am working with things I hardly understand. Life really sucks right! Why try and hide it anymore. Dennis and I are so far up in the air I don't know what will happen between us. I want us to stay together but I feel like a giant void has appear and it may take more work than either of us wants to put in to fix it. We have worked through a lot in the past which I am thankful for. But now, we are both tired. We want to be married. We just want to work out and be done with as little work as possible. Where this will lead us, who knows. What a time for everything to hit the fan. Right before finals, just what I needed. He is trying so hard to fix things. I know he wants things to be better. I am scared to trust him and love him right now. I hate how I feel. If I actually thought anyone would read this I would not say this much. *sigh* why does life have to be so umm errrr grrr.....well you get the idea. I really should get back to work with my spss, data entry, and reading people's handwriting on my beautifully, pain-staking survey. Hope everyone out there is doing well.